Well, it's been a while since I've been on xanga. I guess it kind of died, huh? Anyway, a lot has happened since then. School is going well, but I'm just ready for this semester to be over. It's gone by really fast, but I've been really stressed out lately. It kind of sucks. I changed my major from Vocal Performance to International business. I'm still not sure if it was the right decision. I made a lot of friends through music and I still see them, but it's just not the same. They all have classes together and hang out every day. I feel like I've kind of been forgotten. I don't like that feeling. I mean I guess I have my sorority sisters but it's so hard to juggle school, work AND a social life. Sometimes I feel like I'm stretching myself to thin, but all of these things are so important to me that it's hard to pick one that has to be a top priority. I suppose that school should be number 1, but when all of your friends are hanging out on a Thursday night and you get stuck studying, it stinks. Life is so confusing and sometimes I don't really know what to do. I guess the whole adjustment to college has thrown me for a loop. I miss all of the comfort and familiarity of high school. I love being out on my own, but it's not as easy as I would like it to be. It's strange to me that people see me as some sort of extraordinarily outgoing person. It makes me laugh a little, to tell the truth. Because in actuality, people terrify me. I'm so scared of meeting new people. Maybe I'm afraid that people won't like me. Or maybe it's that I don't really like myself and so I don't feel like they should have to suffer through getting to know me, or I guess, the person that I am around them. I'm just so ready to come home and be with all of my dear friends who I miss so much. I hope you all miss me too... but if you don't it's ok. I know I haven't really attempted to keep in touch with anybody, and for that, I am truly sorry. I should have been more diligent with that. Maybe then I wouldn't be sitting in my room by myself on a Saturday night wondering why no one has called me to go out. This probably all seems very depressing to anyone that might be reading this. It's simply how I feel at the moment. And while I have been absent from Xanga for a while, I feel that it is the only place that I can truly vent my feelings. Partly because my new friends would not understand why I feel the way I do and partly because I know that very few people will actually read this. I hope that everyone I haven't talked to in ages might read this and think about me, but please don't worry about me because that would make me sad. I hate when people have to worry about me. I miss and love you all. Hopefully I will see some of you this summer, and if not, I'll be content with the memories I have of all of you. | 
